EMBRACING MY DARKEST MOMENTS

Sometimes this thick and dark energy comes into my head. Everything becomes heavy, foggy and chaotic. It can be triggered by a bad situation, an argument or simply because my Moon is about to come and I cannot hold anymore all of what I don't like in my life.

My solar plexus seems to be something between a washing machine and a hammer, it feels heavy and closed like when something it's about to explote because it's so full that it needs to release garbage, emotions, unexpressed tears, unspoken words. ..

And I feel so broken inside that at moments it feels as if I was gonna just die unable to hold myself anymore.

And it really feels as if everything was dying in me and around me. I feel so vulnerable, little and scared that I just want to lose control, let everything go, surrender. ..
I let myself drop, fall into the darkness of my own miseries. I allow that darkness to wrap me and push me down into the deep hole, as only there can I heal myself, only there can I get through the darkness and find my light once again.

Wishing you all a very nice weekend 💜
Luisa ★

And as I promised I am back and I am back with an excited feeling of being here sharing with you.

So, how have you been? Hope everything is working right as it needs to be working in your life for yours and your soul's benefit.

To be honest, I have been better than how I am feeling right now, but I think it's all due to this chiropractor I have been seeing. After every session working on a physical level with my body, all these emotions, anxieties. .. have been coming to the surface making my days quite agitated and a bit weepy.

But nothing major and all with very good purpose as the point of it all it's to heal on all levels. 💜

But when we put awareness on any process we go through in life, everything then gets a different meaning and perspective, don't you think?
So I am trying my best to try and be present and aware  at any tear, emotion or  pain going on, thereby I can understand what my body or soul are trying to tell me so I can find more peace and meaning, everything becomes healing when you embrace the situation as a holistic one.

But I have been doing other stuff as well, don't you think for a moment that I espend my days in a contemplative way, normally it's completely the other way round 😄

Today we had lunch with a friend in one of my few favourite places in Glastonbury, Excalibur cafe; it's a vegan cafe/restaurant and although I am not a vegan, the passion they put on everything they do it's what make them special.

I had one of my favourite there, avocado with wild pesto on raw crackers

Absolutely delicious, so if you ever come to Glastonbury (England) it's worth a visit.

And as I've said before I have been doing other stuff and as the good  yarn lover that  I am, I always try to have something going on which involved yarn, this pink project it's a cardigan for my little girl, I am working with 100% cotton as I think it is a good one for the coming time, I will post the final result 😉

The pattern it's quite simple and nice I purchased it time ago, if you wanna give it a try. .. 

You can find it here

This week for some reason I have been enjoying an old song, somehow it has made me feel good, how crazy is that? aaah life. .. we have this illusion of having total control but then a song, a perfume or something else comes across and everything starts shaking letting you in a confusing or completely different place in life. Although it is not the case with me and this song, for some reason I have listened to it from a different perspective. .. a funny one by the way 😉https://youtu.be/SbyAZQ45uww 

Let me know, if you want what do you think about this song. 

So I think that will be it for today, promise I will come with more very soon.

Meantime. .. please be very happy and love yourself 100%

Lots of love 💓💚💜

Luisa xoxo

HEALING

Hi to everyone!!

Hope everything's ok with you and that February is being sweet with you.

Well I am back to normal or the life I know as normal. And I am back and strong on my commitment with my word for this year healing.

I am trying very hard to keep on track with this process as I feel that this is my year to heal, to grow and to see a few dreams coming true and for that to happen, I really need to heal in different levels.

For me this journey into healing myself it will relate in healing the feminine side, so I can reach the wild aspect of myself, my true essence and in a way to bring out the real meaning of being a woman, because in my humbled opinion womanhood these days, it's all kilter, unreal and totally manipulated by men, because dear friend: we live in a patriarchal society.

“Women have to learn where their true source of validation is.” 

Maureen Murdock, The Heroine's journey

So this is so far, the beginnings of my healing process, as human being and as a woman.

Because as I heal myself and my path I am healing my ancestors path and the future generations one.

I would love to get deeper in the womanhood matter but it would be time and future posts for that, to tell you what I think and what I feel and to give you a space for you to express yourself in this aspect.

So by now this is all, hope everything keeps treating you well.

Be very happy!

See you all soon!

Love&Light

Lluisa xoxo